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A.M. Wonderings

I wonder if going through this moment, I've learned anything since the last - because right now it feels like the hard press of a finger on a scab ready to tear away at all the layers of healing that has been done - already a small piece was ripped out leaving a slight ooze of blood and dead tissue. Though I'll be darn if I let it. If I could take away anything from this past weekend, it would be to lean into the chaos; and staring at my wilted potted plant, to not forget to water it daily through this beautiful, warm summer heat. I hope to stop and wonder in moments of chaos; I hope to live and love fully present through it all. I'll keep praying for signs of wonder, to know in my heart and in my thoughts, that God's presence is near and I can lean into the peace that He offers in our broken but beautiful humanity. 

recycled parts

Over the last several weeks, I've been posting material I wrote in the months preceding, rather than put typed letters directly onto this old blog. So here I am, in all my glory and not, at 4:12am after fussing around, exploring the dark of night in my home and my withering mind.  Withered from hustle of days, lost in unconscious meanderings, un-fully appreciated in the present. The bright glare of the computer screen stares back against the blackness of this small room, hoping for magic. Magic to transform days passing to days living. To give this little life, ALL.  Take me as I am, embrace all my imperfections, because I want to shine.  ...